Learning to See

I have these memories of driving down Cuba Road

A little drunk and a lot stoned

The curves too close

The road too dark

Exhilarated

Scared

Not sure how I got there

Not sure of my way home


The map, though,

The map says I'm a liar.

The map says Cuba Road is straight.

Says Cuba Road is short

Simple.

The map says I was never far from home.

The map says I would have known that

Had I bothered to look.


Today

Today I'm lost again

The curves too close

The road too dark

Turns taking me to a lost

Where home is obscured

By my own inability to see


When I find the map,

It will say I'm a liar.

It will say the road was straight

Short

Simple.

The map will say I was never far from home.

The map will say I would have known that

Had I bothered to look.


But the map is wrong.

The map has always been wrong.

The road is dark

The curves are close

The way home is obscured.


And as I search for the map

That will tell me where I am,

How to find my way,

How to see,

I wonder

If I am not better off

Without it.


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